I apologise for the lack of new posts, things have been very difficult the past 6 months. My marriage has ended and after 7 years I suddenly find myself alone. I have a 2 year old girl who was 1 when this all started happening. The crazy thing is I thought my life was going great and I just never saw it coming. It has without doubt been the most difficult time in my life. The sense of loss I have endured over the past months has been hard to bear. I genuinely felt a happiness and love for my family that was at it's most powerful right at the moment this happened, it was like hitting a brick wall at a thousand miles per hour.
I am healing as time passes but I still feel a lot of negativity and a lack of enthusiasm and this has affected my photography greatly. It's almost unbearable being at the beach for example when all I see are young couples and happy families, it's like a punch to the gut every time and takes away the joy of photography. Many times I have ventured out now only to return home with my tail between my legs and no photos, weighed down by a heavy feeling of loss.
I am healing as time passes but I still feel a lot of negativity and a lack of enthusiasm and this has affected my photography greatly. It's almost unbearable being at the beach for example when all I see are young couples and happy families, it's like a punch to the gut every time and takes away the joy of photography. Many times I have ventured out now only to return home with my tail between my legs and no photos, weighed down by a heavy feeling of loss.
I had been hoping to take photos constantly as a form of therapy and to take my mind of things but the weather has been terrible in South Wales, snow, rain, wind, cold temperatures, everything except for the sun which is what I really want but even when the weather is nice it can be hard to empty my mind of negative thoughts long enough to actually enjoy shooting.
Hopefully the weather will improve soon.
I have taken photos a few times this year but not as often as I would like.
I fear I may be turning into a train spotter too, albeit an artistic one! :-P
Managed to take my old Tokina SZ-X SD 28-70mm f/3.5-4.5 out for a spin on my NEX-5n a while back, a fantastic lens considering it was a budget optic when new, stop it down to F/5.6 and you will enjoy superb sharpness but more striking to me is the enthusiastic colour saturation!
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Hello. Really lively images. I love how the lens pulls so much colour in. Just about to order the CCTV 35mm lens from eBay! John
Hello. Really lively images. I love how the lens pulls so much colour in. Just about to order the CCTV 35mm lens from eBay! John
I love your Tokina pictures, but how do you set exposure? Automatic or manual from metering light?
You are an excellent photographer, I have just discovered your blog and I am enjoying reading your posts and admiring your photographs! Just hope you get better and manage to take more pictures and share them here. Your locomotive shots are great and so are your b&w shots of people with a wide angle lens up close. Keep shooting, take care!
@Truls Sjurelv
Hi there,
I usually use Automatic exposure but I use exposure compensation and exposure lock a lot!
@John McBriarty
Hi John, I'm sure you will get a lot of enjoyment out of that little lens!
@André Balsa
Hi André thanks for the kind words!
I'm still feeling low unfortunately, my marriage has ended and after 7 years I am alone. It has been very difficult to have any enthusiasm for anything including photography although I do try.
I'll get there eventually!
Hi
I've just stumbled on your blog and you have an amazing eye, your photos are beautiful. My relationship with my partner for 6 years just ended and I can't take awesome photos like you. You are in a better position than me, so please keep your chin up. I know it's easier said then done, there's more down then ups right now, but life is a choice, so please lets try together to be happy.
I still read your blogs and often times I wish I wasn't married so I can travel around world and shoot RAW videos and photos as well. So I'm a bit jealous of your work and keep 'em coming!
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