I apologise for the lack of new posts, things have been very difficult the past 6 months. My marriage has ended and after 7 years I suddenly find myself alone. I have a 2 year old girl who was 1 when this all started happening. The crazy thing is I thought my life was going great and I just never saw it coming. It has without doubt been the most difficult time in my life. The sense of loss I have endured over the past months has been hard to bear. I genuinely felt a happiness and love for my family that was at it's most powerful right at the moment this happened, it was like hitting a brick wall at a thousand miles per hour.
I am healing as time passes but I still feel a lot of negativity and a lack of enthusiasm and this has affected my photography greatly. It's almost unbearable being at the beach for example when all I see are young couples and happy families, it's like a punch to the gut every time and takes away the joy of photography. Many times I have ventured out now only to return home with my tail between my legs and no photos, weighed down by a heavy feeling of loss.
I am healing as time passes but I still feel a lot of negativity and a lack of enthusiasm and this has affected my photography greatly. It's almost unbearable being at the beach for example when all I see are young couples and happy families, it's like a punch to the gut every time and takes away the joy of photography. Many times I have ventured out now only to return home with my tail between my legs and no photos, weighed down by a heavy feeling of loss.
I had been hoping to take photos constantly as a form of therapy and to take my mind of things but the weather has been terrible in South Wales, snow, rain, wind, cold temperatures, everything except for the sun which is what I really want but even when the weather is nice it can be hard to empty my mind of negative thoughts long enough to actually enjoy shooting.
Hopefully the weather will improve soon.
I have taken photos a few times this year but not as often as I would like.
I fear I may be turning into a train spotter too, albeit an artistic one! :-P
Managed to take my old Tokina SZ-X SD 28-70mm f/3.5-4.5 out for a spin on my NEX-5n a while back, a fantastic lens considering it was a budget optic when new, stop it down to F/5.6 and you will enjoy superb sharpness but more striking to me is the enthusiastic colour saturation!
